I love my mania.  I am not an aggressive psycho manic, I am excited, peppy and fun.  I am creative, outgoing and put everyone around me in a great mood. 

I like to think that when I am manic, I am the equivalent of a stable person on the perfect amount of molly, adderall and coke.

As much as I love my mania, that is when the damage happens.  I am impulsive, dont sleep, and look for drugs to keep me going and help me come down.  At the time, this doesn’t seem like an issue because I feel unstoppable.

I know I can’t function realistically as a full blown manic girl.  Well, maybe if life was a never ending party….but it’s not and I do have to work at some point.  I hate that mood stabilizers take so much of my awesome qualities away while they get me stable. 

Fuck Depakote

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